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Thursday, 29 August 2013

FANFIC- FRAGMENTS OF MEMORIES(9)

A girl was crouching near a tree at the beach. The surrounding was very peaceful to relax her mind. The feeling of gushing wind flowing towards her and she let her hair flow along. Her arms were folded and resting on her knees as she stared out into space with a distance expression. After a while, she stood up and walked towards the shore. The bright sun made her eyes squint, how long has it been since she last when to the beach?

She played with the sand before moving back to the tree again. She took out her cell phone and put the earplugs in her ears. ‘Friendship’ by Okazaki Ritsuko was played. She checked her watched a few times. 

How long is that guy going to take to come here? The girl was waiting for someone, someone she longed to see. Someone she cared so much, she do anything to see him again.

Yes, that girl is me. Hatsune Miku is my name. It’s been two months since the last operation was done. How was it? Well it was good, I guessed? I barely made it alive and I thanked God my memories were not harmed. Then, I had my treatment session for a month before the doctor gave his permission for me to go back here in Osaka. The moment I heard the good news, I cried. How long has it been since I last saw him since I moved here? About a year and more I guessed.

After a week, mom and dad bought the tickets. And we just arrived here yesterday. I woke up early today hoping to see him. How I missed going to his house. I rang the bell and greet his mother and gave my letter, asking him to go to the beach at 9:00a.m.

It was already 9:30a.m. I was still waiting for him, still believing that he will come. Believing that he still kept his promised. I don’t have any idea how many times the same song was repeated that I took my cell phone to change to other song.

Suddenly, my sight became black. My eyes were covered with hands. Those hands that once tightly gripping mine back then. Those hands that I’ve longed to touch again. I smiled.

“You came.”

“Sorry I’m late. Want some ice-cream?”
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Friendship BY:Ritsuko Okazaki.

Yesterday
Kotoba ga tarinakute
Surechigatta toshitemo
Yamanai de motto wakaritai.

Toki ni
Hitori ninaritakute
Tabi wo shite mo kokoro wa
Umaranai soshite
Taisetsu na hitoni kizuku yo
Itsumo itsumo
Sou umakuiku to wa kagiranai mainichi
Dakedo waratte
Kimi ga
Kureta
Tatta hitokoto ga dare hodo ureshikatta ka
Zutto zutto oboeteru.

Memories
Mahuyu no kaerimichi
Shiroi yuki ni ashiato
Huritsumoru
Atataka na kimochi.

Itsu ka
Hanarete kurasu hi ga
Kite mo kitto tomodachi
Dare yori mo itsu mo chikaku ni kanjite iru kara
Tooku tooku
Tada kagaite mieta mirai ga sugu soko
Saa ikanacha
Kitto
Kimi ga
Sono akogare y negai o kanaeru koto
Zutto zutto shinjiteru.

Itsumo
Itsumo
Sou umakuiku to wa kagiranai mainichi
Dakedo watte
Kimi ga
Kureta
Tatta hitokoto ga dore hodo ureshikatta ka
Zutto zutto
Oboeteru.

Tooku tooku
Tada kagaite mieta miraiga sugu soko
Saa ikanacha
Kitto
Kimi ga
Sono akogare yanegai o kanaeru koto
Zutto zutto shinjiteru
Zutto zutto shimjiteru.

FRIENDSHIP- Ritsuko Okazaki

FANFIC- FRAGMENTS OF MEMORIES(8)

“Len. Len, don’t go. Stay with me! I need you!”

I watched as he walked past me, walking away without saying anything. I cried, tears were flowing down. I tried to stop him but I stood still unable to do anything.

“No!!! Stop!!!”

TEET! TEET! TEET! I woke up, staring at the ceiling. The sounds of the machines in the room were ringing in my head. I glanced around and saw mom on my right. What the heck? Just a dream. It’s just a dream, I relaxed myself. I blinked few times, trying to wake me completely from the dream.
It’s been 8 moths now since I moved here. 8 months since the last time I saw Len at the airport. The last time I spoke to him. I took a picture frame from the desk on my left. A picture of me and Len playing at the beach. We looked so happy. I cried, I’ve longed to see him. Longed to touch his face, brushed his hair and eat ice-cream together. How is he?

After a while, I took out my cell phone and listen to some song. I played ‘Friendship’ by Okazaki Ritsuko. The song really portrayed how I was.

Yesterday kotoba ga tarinakute
Surechigatta to shitemo
Yamenai de motto wakaritai
Toki ni hitori ni naritakute
Tabi wo shitemo kokoro wa umaranai
Soshite taisetsu na hito ni kidzuku yo

Itsumo itsumo sou umaku yuku to wa kagiranai mainichi
Dakedo waratte

Kimi ga kureta tatta hitokoto ga dorehodo ureshikatta ka
Zutto zutto oboeteru

I sang along.

Memories mafuyu no kaerimichi
Shiroi yuki ni ashiato
Furitsumoru atataka na kimochi

Itsuka hanarete kurasu hi ga kitemo
Kitto tomodachi
Dare yori mo itsumo chikaku ni kanjiteru kara

Tooku tooku tada kagayakite mieta mirai ga sugusoko
Saa ikanakucha

I tried to remember my past with Len. Trying hard to remember it.

Kitto kimi ga sono akogare ya negai wo kanaeru koto
Zutto zutto shinjiteru

Itsumo itsumo sou umaku yukuku to wa kagiranai mainichi
Dakedo waratte

I stared at the picture of us in the frame. I wished we could meet again.

Kimi ga kureta tatta hitokoto ga dorehodo ureshikatta ka
Zutto zutto oboeteru
Tooku tooku tada kagayakite mieta mirai ga sugusoko
Saa ikanakucha
Kitto kimi ga sono akogare ya negai wo kanaeru koto
Zutto zutto shinjiteru

Zutto zutto shinjiteru

When the song ended, I put the frame back at it place. Took out my diary and wrote the lyrics on it. Trying to remember each of the lyrics and translate it to English. I’m glad mom didn’t wake up or that would be a bit embarrassing.

After some time, the doctor came in. mom was surprised that she jumped off her chair. They whispered something and I was trying hard to figure what they were saying. Then, they both when out and I stared blankly, wanting someone to explain what’s going to happen. Dad came in this time with a few nurses behind following him. He sat beside me and smiled. I smiled back.  He patted my head a few times.

“Good luck, dear. Stay alive, fight for him.”

Dad went towards the door. I tried to figure out what’s he was trying to say.

“Daddy, what do you mean? Don’t go, stay with me. I’m lonely here!”

Completely faking not hearing me, dad closed the door. I caught a glimpsed of him, crying. Well that’s a bit unusual. The nurses surrounded me and one of them took out a syringe and pressed it on my arm.

“Not that… thing… again.”

I FAINTED.

I was at the hallway when I woke up. Mom was there beside me, dad was nowhere in sight. She said I am going for an operation again. But this is the last time she said. The operation decides on my life and death. Mom then went away when the doctor called her. The nurse there was kind enough to give me a pen and a piece of paper and let me write a few things. I’m going to write for him. For Len.

Hey, Len. How are you? I miss you so bad. I hope you will too. I still remember our promise and I tried to keep it. But when you received this letter, I either am alive or dead. I’m wearing the socks. The socks you gave me for my birthday, I’m glad I brought this here. At least when I looked at it, I remembered you.
The nurse told me I got two minutes left so I really have… to stop writing.
I am going for an operation after this. Len, this last operation, I don’t know if I can make it out or not. Every day I prayed so hard that I can see you again, I hope it came true. If I can make it alive, I hope you still remember me as I do every day. I hope we can hang out like we used too and make lots of memories together like last time. But if I can’t, I want to say that I’m sorry that I forgot about our times together and I will always remember you till the last breath. I love you.

I gave the letter to the nurse and asked her to give it to mom. Then she pushed me towards the operation room. I prayed.

FANFIC- FRAGMENTS OF MEMORIES(7)

I woke up suddenly because I heard a sound of a car stopping in front of the house. I took my cell phone, its 1:00a.m. My head feels really hurt. It seems like my eyes were going to pop out from the eye pocket and someone was squishing my skull. I put my hands of my head, massaging it. Flashes of fragment memories were displayed on my mind. A little boy and a girl were eating ice-creams by the lake. Strawberry and chocolate flavor, ah,… my favorite and Len’s too. Then, the boy gave the girl a box with socks inside it that looks like mine.

“Arghhhh!”

I screamed in pain. PUFF! The fragment memories disappeared like sands falling on the ground. My head felt like someone pulling hard my skin from the skull and then the brain felt like someone grabbing it so tightly that it might get squished.

“Arghhh!My head!”

I heard mom opening the door’s house and footsteps were heard running upstairs. Someone tried opening the door and I went over to unlock it. When I opened it, dad was standing outside with a worried face on. And there was a foreign man beside him, wearing a white uniform with stethoscope around his neck. A doctor? Why is dad here with a doctor so suddenly? I felt that something was wrong.
The doctor examined me and asking how I felt. He opened his suitcase, flipped some files and closed it again. He went to dad and they talked for a while, I stared blankly. The doctor went over to me again with dad.

“As we expected from our researched, the cancer cells were still growing inside her brain. It will take a few operations to remove it. But the fear of her losing her memories again would not be avoidable and the worst is risking her life. Since it is better to move her to United Kingdom for an operation, I suggest you, sir that we do it quickly.”

Cancer cells?Brain?Memories? What is he talking about?

“Argh!!! Daddy, it hurts!”

I grabbed my head. That pain again. Make it go, please.

“Miku, I know it hurts but please bear a little more. Daddy’s going to save you. Daddy’s going to take you again. Like last time to overseas again.”

“Where is daddy taking me? Why is daddy here?  I don’t want to go, I’m happy here! I have friends, finally. 

I want to stay with them. Len! I want to stay with Len always, I promised him. Don’t take me away, please. Mom!”

I saw mom leaning against the door, her eyes went down. Tears were rolling on her cheeks.

“I’m sorry, honey. I can’t do anything. Just let daddy take you like last time. Just let them cure you again.”

“Mommy! Help me, Len!

Dad piggyback me outside. A yellow color taxi was waiting outside. Dad shoved me inside before locking 
the door. Dad sat at the seat in front. Seconds later, the left door opened and mom came inside. I’m so scared that I shivered. What’s going to happen to me? I got brain tumor and I had a memory lost before. So the memory of the boy and girl before was actually me and Len that was erased from my memory bank? My happy childhood memories that were no longer in my possession, I cried. No wonder Len was so shocked to see me, I was his childhood friend. And the time he saw my childhood picture and he was startled at first, oh how I wished I knew it before so that I can ask him about it. I saw a car behind following us that it must be the doctor. Mom and dad kept talking about cancer, operation, tumor and all that I kept quiet. I need to see Len before anything else happen.

I tried to stop the taxi by disturbing the driver. The car went unstable that it went left and right. Dad scolded me that I was being childish. Mom said nothing which made me cried even louder. She usually defends me all the time. And before I knew it, mom took out a syringe from her bag and pressed it on my arm. There was a crystal clear liquid inside it.

“Mom, what did… you… ?”

My eyes were feeling sleepy and my head feels light. And the next thing I knew is that,…

I FAINTED.

I woke up. The headache was still there. I felt drowsy. Did the thing mom gave me before made me fainted? What time is it? Slowly, I glanced my watch. 6:30a.m.? The noise at the background startled me. Where am i?

“30 minutes for the flight to United Kingdom. Passengers are requested to gather at Gate 4E. I repeat Gate 
4E.”

I was shocked, my eyes widened. Why am I at the airport? I glanced around. I need to run. I’m scared, I don’t know what to do anymore. All I know is that I want to see Len. I’ll do whatever I can to see him. I felt someone grabbing from behind, dad! He looked stern when I tried to struggle myself free. The doctor was sitting beside me watching my behaviour. Dad scolded me for disobeying him again, I kept quiet. Mom came a few minutes later, with tickets on her hand.

I was crying so loudly when dad dragged me towards the departure station while mom pushed the luggage’s’ trolley. Everyone was looking but I didn’t care like I used to, I wanted to see Len so badly that I acted stupidly. I just want to see him for the last time at least.

“Miku! Miku! Miku!”

I glanced back and stopped walking. I thought a faint scream of someone calling me. Len? Is he here? I ran back looking for him.

“Len?Len? Where are you? I want to see you!”

I saw Len running towards me, with a few guards chasing behind. I cried, running towards him. He came, I don’t know how happy I was that time.

“My mom told me you’re moving. I came quickly as I can. I’m glad I can see before you depart.”

“Len, I…”

“Miku, I knew all about it. Just go. I want you to be happy rather than see you miserable. Promise me you’ll remember me there. Take good care.”

The guards managed to catch up and I watched as he was dragged away.

“Len,… I ... I love you. I promised I won’t forget again this time.”

Between the crowds, I saw a hand waving, making a peace sign. I cried. I love you. I won’t forget all our memories together. Our times that we built together, one that were so difficult to be erased. Dad grabbed my hand suddenly. Expecting him to get angry instead he smiled at me and I hugged him, crying in his arms.

FANFIC- FRAGMENTS OF MEMORIES(6)

I woke up with a heavy, dizzy head. Tsk, I had a terrible nightmare last night that Len kissed me at the beach near the shore. Urgh, I hoped it’s not. Too stupidly realistic. Oh right, today is my birthday. I almost forgot. After a long shower, I went downstairs. No one, maybe mom is at the mall and dad is of course at his office. I watched the TV while eating muffins. Hmm,… the TV nowadays are boring. Next, next…oh, Adventure Time! Cool, the episode of Finn with her girlfriend, Flame Princess.

RING DING DONG. Just a few minutes later, the doorbell rang. Eh, did mom forget her keys? Aish, so lazy to get up. Lazily I walked towards the door. The longer I took, the louder the doorbell rang. Oh god, I hate loud noises so early in the morning. This really ruins my weekends. And it was my birthday today, cant anyone gave me a time of peace? RING DING DONG! RING DING DONG!

“Mom! I got it, just stop ringing the damn bell. It spoiled my mood! Eh…? Len?”

“Hey, sorry to disturb you princess. Err,… I was planning to take you for a date around town since it’s your birthday today. So can you go and change your dress first? Oh right, your mom is in my house so don’t bother calling her.

He said that with his blushing face turning away with his hands on his eyes, sometimes peeking at me. Is something wrong? Did I smell bad? Is my face that bad every morning like I always thought? Oh my gosh,… I’m just wearing my tank top right now? This is so embarrassing! I need to change!

“Eto,… wait. I’ll go upstairs to change. You sit here.”

“Here? You meant on the floor?”

“Urgh, go sit there. In the living room. Go watch Adventure Time or whatever. Do whatever you want. Just,… stay in the house, get it?”

“Okay, daisy. Don’t worry, I won’t leave you. I’ll wait. But urm,… no Adventure Time for me.”

Totally ignoring him, I ran upstairs. Mom is to mean, urgh,… she didn’t even asked my permission for this. Look how embarrassing I am right now. I ransacked my closet. Hmm,… anything pretty here? Anything? After almost all my clothes thrown on the bed,…

“Wait. What am I thinking? I’m just going to go out with that psycho, not that I’m going a date with Jeremy Shada or something.”

After half an hour, I choose a black Nicoletta Pintuck t-shirt from GUESS with a white ice color Waist Drop Skinny Levis’ jean. Before going out, I once again looked into the mirror with the model poses I took from Model Runaway. After I was satisfied, I hurriedly went downstairs again. But went upstairs again to take my cell phone from the desk.

Slowly I took my steps down the stairs to make me unnoticed. I saw the lights from the TV. Adventure Time? Tsk,… I thought no Adventure Time for him. Is he messing with me or what? Quietly, I entered the living room. KRUH KROH. I glanced at the sofa. My eyes widened, Len is sleeping. Quiet, quiet me. I sat down beside him. I brushed his yellow long hairs away with my eyes staring at him. I’m so nervous, my heart was beating like crazy. DUP DAP! I patted his head a few times. DASH! He suddenly woke up with his muscular hands tightened on mine. I was startled at fist. Gosh, I almost had a heart attack.

“Well,… I was expecting you to kiss or hug me or something.”

“On this situation, you don’t really have the right to call me a pervert after what you did. You just sexually harassed me when I was sleeping.”

“Well,… I don’t. Err,… you wasn’t sleeping anyway.”

“Haha, you figured it out? Well whatever princess. Come on, don’t want to waste anytime more now.”

I went outside and saw a big motorbike outside.

“Hop on! It’s not like we’re going around by bicycle, we don’t have the whole day.”

I grabbed his back and tried getting on. It’s not my fault, it was my first time anyway. As I was scared, I grabbed his back tightly. He laughed so loudly that I hit his head.

“Ouch, that hurts! Grab tight, I’m going faster.”

Len’s bike was going fast but with constant speed. The scenery was very beautiful. The feeling of gushing wind flowing towards me and the early air that was very refreshing. I let my hairs flow with the wind. The sea looks pretty up the hills. Len said that he’ll go there this evening and he’ll bringing us to a famous cake shop for breakfast first.

After 10 minutes of journey, we arrived at a shop. Len parked his bike on a parking spot that got his name on it. Huh, is this his shop?

“KAORU’S CAKE HOUSE.”

I read the signboard on the shop, well it was not his name.

“Yeah, Kaoru’s my mom’s name. so technically this is my family’s shop. My dad runs this shop but now his gone so it’s kind of mine now.”

“Oh sorry for the loss. Nice shop by the way.”

Len pushed the door opened. From outside, I can smell the delicious aroma of cakes overflowing inside my nose. I can feel my mouth watering. Len took me to meet his workers. But I had my eyes fixed on the strawberry cake that Len decided to let me eat first. He must be thinking of me as a monster that loves to eat.

“One cut of those strawberry cakes and a glass of strawberry milk for this princess. As for me, the usual one.”

Len ordered at the one with the nametag ‘Wig’ on.

“Hmm,…so how did you know I likes strawberry milk?”

“Well, you got a mug with ‘I love Strawberry’ sticker on it and you always eat or drink anything with strawberries in it. So yeah, not that hard to guess.”

“Oh, right.”

One of the workers introduced himself as Bob. He gave me my cake and milk and a cup of cappuccino to Len. Bob was kind of cute with his ‘bob’ haircut. Then, Izz and Wing joined us to properly introduce themselves to me. They all were nice guys that they were very nice with the customers, no wonder the business were moving well. They were making jokes of me and Len as a couple and Len seems happy with that. Hm,,..well I’m not that angry anyway, lol. Apparently, Bob, Izz, and Wing are all his cousins that are helping his mom with the shop and they were quite reliable. Then, everyone wished me and gave a bug cake with lots of small strawberries on it. I thanked them and moved on.

Next, Len took me to the lake. There were quite a lot of peoples in the park. Almost everyone were jogging and exercising. I can’t even remember the last time I did all that? He took me to the playground that was quite full of children. We played with the swings and Len was kind enough to push me at the back. After almost half an hour, Len was tired and we went to the lake to feed the fishes there. Len bought some fish foods near the stalls there. The fishes were damn huge must be because the residents there were too nice to feed them every day.

“So Len, why were you always blushing when you saw the first time?”

“Err,…no. You see. Eto,… how to explain this. You,… really looked like my favourite artist, Zatsune Miki.
Your name is almost the same too. Haha,… “

“Oh,… I see. Okay then.”

Our conversation ended like that. I rolled my eyes, who is Zatsune Miki anyway?

Len took me to a nearby big, shady tree.

“Wait here.”

He then ran somewhere. I laid my back against the tree before noticing his back that was thrown on the tree’s big roots. I stared at it for a while before getting up and ransacked it. I took the opportunity to check all his things. I found a town map, seems like some of the places was circled. Maybe he was planning to take me there. A few money inside the bag mostly coins, a book titled ‘Are you okay with cancer’ and an earplugs. Oh,… his phone. Now that I thought about it, I didn’t even have his phone number yet when he got mine. I took it and exchanged our numbers myself. After some time, Len came back with a chocolate ice-cream in one hand and a strawberry one in the other. We ate it while chatting stuffs about school. Seems like Kaito and Luka were a couple after all. I smiled, good for you two. I was surprised that a squirrel ran past me that I accidentally hit the ice-cream on my cheeks. Len looked at me and I froze. He came nearer and nearer until he stopped near my face. I stay quiet as I was scared and kept my eyes closed. He then wiped the ice-cream on my face before bursting out laughing. My scared face was too funny, he said. Oh geez,… I hit his several times until he apologized. I hate him,… a lot.

Len took some time to show me around town like the mall, bus stop, market, stalls and schools. After a meal at the Mc Donald’s we went straight home.

It’s night when we arrived. And Len finally took me to the beach as he promised. It was dark, quiet and no one was around except us. Len walked towards the shore and I followed behind. When we got there, the sky was filled with beautiful fireworks. Beautiful, explosive, captivating. Fireworks in the night sky can make even the most brilliant of men forget for a moment, the warmth of the gentle flame awaiting us faithfully. It was pretty, beautiful, colorful and all the words that are synonyms to it. We sat down and enjoyed it.

One, two, three…

Four, five,…

Six, seven, and an eight,…

Nine and… ten.

The last one ended with a blast. That wasn’t a mere coincidence they’re making doing fireworks on my birthday.

“You prepared all this?”

“Yes, Otanjoubi omedetou, Miku.”

He whispered in my ear and leaned near to kiss me. I kept my eyes closed, expecting a kiss.

“Ouch, that hurts.”

He pressed my nose, smiling.

“What was you expecting, daisy?”

I got up and walked away from him, sulking.He yanked me back.His arms were all around me and he had a sweet aroma around him. I weakly recognized the fragrance of vanilla and something flowery, but I couldn’t recall its name. The scent of his neck flowed into my nose and caused the little hairs on my arms to stand straight up. He pressed my body against his and I felt how a strange warmth started to grow in my stomach.  He leaned down, and I tipped my head to accept his kiss. I tried not to think about how uncomfortable our extreme height difference suddenly seemed. All I knew is that it was soft and sweet and magical…My's eyes fluttered closed, my knees went weak, butterflies were turning pirouettes in my stomach, my skin was tingling, blood singing, fireworks were exploding behind my eyelids.

I opened my eyes when he moved away. He smiled when my face were flustered red.  I watched his as he crouched down, playing with the water. I joined him and the situation suddenly turned weird. I tried to talk but words were not coming out. After a while, he stood up and threw his hand towards me and I took it and got up too.

“You know, Miku. There was really no one named Zatsune Miki but I used to call a girl with that name. We both were still small that time and we were neighbors in Tokyo. She was sweet, so small and short, innocent looking, cry-baby and what melts me were her sweetest smile. We used to play a lot back then. I always took her to play at the park and when we came back late, our mom will get mad on us. And then time when I always protected her form the dogs of our neighborhood when we got back from kindergarten and the way she always called me a hero back then which makes me bit proud of it, heh.  But that doesn’t last long as she moved away. The last time I saw her was when I bought an ice-cream for her in the park. Then, she moved the next the day without telling anything.”

Len looks sad and frustrated that he looked like he was about to cry. I felt the urged to ask him.

“Who is she?”

Len went nearer to me. He placed both his hands on my shoulders. His face went nearer of mine and tears were falling down his cheeks. Then, he spoke.

“It’s you, Miku.”

My eyes widened. Len looked away. My mind went blank. I don’t know why but I ran away, leaving Len behind.

FANFIC- FRAGMENTS OF MEMORIES(5)

Kling! Kling! Kling! My head felt dizzy. God damn, who the heck would call someone this early? Wait,… would it be that? I grabbed my cell phone and answered the call.

“Hello? Dad?”

“Finally, you’re awake! I’ve called you almost 15 times. I thought you’re fainted or already died in the room. Get ready and let’s go to school together.”

Tch,… I seriously thought it was dad. But then it’s Len.

“Wait, how do you know my number?”

“Oh,… Luka gave it to me. Well it’s not that hard to get though.”

Argh, I’m gonna kill her! I turned off the call first and resumed sleeping. The bed feels so warm and comfy and fluffy that it’s so hard to get up. ZZZ… BANG! BANG! Argh,… why does everyone likes to disturb me? I walked sleepily towards the door. Why does mom knocked my door so early? When I opened it, Len was in his uniform holding a bowl of cereal. Give me a break already. Wait a minute,… I’m in my pajamas and my head was like a total mess!

“Get out! What are you even doing here?”

“Okay, I get it. Your mom said I need to wake up you again as she knew your habit of sleeping back.”

I slammed the door. When did mom became his comrade? Huh,… this is really depressing. I got ready within minutes and went down. Mom was talking with Len and it was about me! That’s so embarrassing. I sat opposite Len and grabbed my favorite strawberry milk. Len looked at me when I poured it in my mug. What, is it that weird to drink this?

After eating a slice of bread, I said goodbye to mom and went outside to grab my bicycle. Len went back to take his’. We stopped at Family Mart to buy bento. I bought a small set of bento and a bottle of strawberry milk from the vender machine there. Len looked at me weirdly again. Is it that wrong to drink this?

We arrived at 7.45a.m. Still 15 minutes before class started. We went to the bicycle parking spot to lock our bicycles. Luka and Kaito chatted with me when I saw them there. And when I looked back, Len was gone, like I’ve expected. Gakupo-sensei was still absent today so the class was very noisy. The weirdest thing was Len was there. In the early classes! Which is a bot weird because he usually skips it. Maybe he doesn't have to report the incident to the discipline teacher anymore. But he was not sitting on his place. He dragged his chair to one of the hot girls of our class. I think her name is Akita Neru.

Akita-chan was very pretty that it’s not that weird when all the boys hang out around her but the thought of Len seems a bit weird. I mean Len usually doesn't really takes any interest in girls. They were laughing and talking loudly which makes me a bit jealous that I bit my lip and clenched my fist.
Wait,… am I jealous? No,… no I’m not! That’s stupid! I walked away and sat beside Luka and Kaito with a moody face on. They both looked at me and smiled.

“Miku-chan, are you jealous?”

They laughed. I smirked.

“No, I’m not!”

They looked at each other and quietened down. Luka said that they’re taking me to a popular café in town to celebrate my birthday. Len said that the cake there was very delicious and that sometimes they went there just to eat the famous moist chocolate cake. Just by hearing it makes my mouth watering.
Not long after that, it was recess. Luka and Kaito went to the cafeteria to buy breads. I glanced at the back. Len was in his place. I want to talk to him. I dragged me chair towards him.

“Len,… I…”

Len suddenly got up and I was startled. He walked away towards the dustbin before throwing his leftovers bento away. I watched him as he walked past me towards Neru. Then, they both went out. I was left alone, it hurts when you were left out by everyone. I don’t know why but it hurts deep down inside and my head will feels dizzy as if I was remembering something I forgot about. I wanted to ask Len what I did wrong and I followed behind them. They were walking towards the rooftop.

Suddenly, the memories of me being dragged there were playing on my brain. When I thought of it, my body shivers. I wondered what happened to that guy. I heard the teachers said he was admitted to the hospital too just like his little brother. Len doesn't wants to talk to me about it that I kept quiet.
I followed them far away behind and sometimes hid in various places to prevent them from noticing me, behind the dustbin, the teachers and poles. And when they went inside, I waited outside.

“What am I doing? Stalking someone is totally a bad thing to do!”

I opened the door slightly a bit and peeked inside. Len and Neru were talking and they looks like a couple that I bit my lip again. God grief, I’m jealous. After 5 minutes, Neru went out, smiling. I smirked. I hid deeper inside the dark to prevent her from noticing me. When I saw Len coming out, I shoved him back inside again. Len looked surprised to see me.

“Miku?! What are you doing here?”

“Don’t ask me why I’m here or why I’m doing this because I… I…really don’t know the answers. But I just want to tell you that if I did something wrong again and it really pisses you off, I’m sorry. But being left alone, really hurts, I don’t know why. That’s all,bye.”

“Miku, it wasn't like what you thought it is.”

I ran away and slammed the door, leaving Len behind. I glanced back and Len didn't came after me. I cried and went to the restroom. It took me a while to stop crying. I entered class with two red eyes. Kaito and Luka looked shocked and Len kept trying to talk to me but I kept quiet and pretended not noticing him. When the last class ended, Len kept looking at me but eventually walked away towards Neru and they both went out. I cried again and Luka tried to comfort me by bringing me to the famous café called ‘Maid-chan Kawaii’. I tried the famous moist chocolate cake and it was delicious that I ate four slices. No wonder it was so famous. The, we had strawberry pudding for dessert and I thought it was like the first time I've ate something that delicious.

I rang mom up to say that I’ll be late for dinner. Luka and Kaito were going to take me to watch the new movie, ‘Rise of the Guardian”. I really liked how Jack Frost looks like an anime character and the movie was really interesting also the plot was nice and so was the characters. After the movie ended, it was already 10p.m.  They sent me home and I said goodbye and thanked them for today.

When I came inside, mom was already waiting for me at the kitchen with a cake on her hand. I was shocked as usually mom baked me a cake on the day of my birthday. Mom said Len bought it and she wants me to eat it with him. I refused at first but when mom stared me deep down, I don’t really have the guts to say no. I went to his house and knocked it. His mom opened it and she said that Len waited long for me to come back home. I went upstairs and knocked his door but when no one answered, I opened it myself. KRUH KROH. Len was sleeping. I quietly closed the door and went inside. His bedroom was decorated with balloons and there was a banner hung at the middle and it reads ‘Otanjoubi Omedetou, Miku’. I went around, now that I've thought about it, it was my first time here. I dragged his chair towards his bed. I watched him sleeping while eating the cake. When I thought about what happened today, I felt like choking him to death. After I finished the cake, I went to his desk to put the plate on it. To my surprised, I saw a box wrapped with colorful wrappers and a card was glued on it. I opened and read it.

“Otanjoubi omedetou, baka! I wasn't trying to make you feel sad or anything. It was my first time to celebrate a girl’s birthday so I had to ask for help from Neru. To tell the truth, I was pretty shocked when you shoved me inside the rooftop again because I wasn't expecting you to act like that. And when you came in the class with those crying eyes, I felt like my fragile heart breaking. I promise you I won’t do it again, never ever. By the way, Neru wished you happy birthday and she said she was sorry. So… yeah I don’t really know what to give to you so I hoped you like it.”

I took the box and opened it. There was a pair of socks inside. With cute little skulls on it. Not to say that it looked old, worn and used. I looked at it and somehow I felt like I remembered something but when I thought about it my head felt hurt. It seems like I belongs to someone and it held so much memories. I looked at Len, what is he trying to say? I sat down beside him and stared at him sleeping. I went nearer to his face and gave him a kiss on the cheeks. Thank you. I closed the door without even noticing that he had woke up,

SMILING.

FANFIC- FRAGMENTS OF MEMORIES(4)

Argh! I woke up when mom puts some antiseptic on my face. Thanks mom that really hurts, very much. Mom said that I’m not going to school today after what happened yesterday. What happened yesterday? Ah, yes...that. I remembered now. I took a mirror near my bed, a scar and a lot of bruises. Mom said I was lucky Len came right on time and carried me home. Mom, Len was the main reason why I was kidnapped. Wait,...carried me home? Urm,...you mean like,...that hugging or some kind? I blushed, my God that’s really embarrassing. Mom went down to cook porridge.

I switched on the TV and pressed ‘ON’ button on the DVD player’s remote. I was planning to watch Sword Art Online(SAO) after school but rather than doing nothing, guessed why not? Man, Kirito looks charming with his black hair, black eyes, black boats, black gloves and the black ‘Midnight Jacket’. Well you can tell from top and below, he’s all black except for his face only. Just then, mom screamed from below, saying someone is visiting me. Huh, who is it? After a while, there’s a knock and the door opened. 

Len stood in front of my room with a bunch of flowers.

“Erm,..so yeah, are you alright? I was worried since yesterday when you fainted.”

“Thanks to you I got a scar and my face is a mess!”

I looked at him angrily, his eyes went down as if he was truly sorry. Gosh, there’s a lot of scar on his face. I felt sorry.

“Hontoni gomen. I’m sorry I dragged into this. I’m sorry. Here’s some flower to cheer you up.”

The flowers were pretty and nice but I guessed he was so naive with girls that he just gave me flowers. But i kinda like it.

“Giving flowers nowadays is lame, don’t you know? You should like bring some comics or video games or something, you know, for fun sake.”

“Well,... to tell the truth I don’t because I never gave presents to a girl well except for my mom. I’m sorry if you didn't like it. If you want to play, well you can come to my house because I have tons of games.”

He dragged my desk’s chair beside my bed and joined me watching SAO. The situation felt weird as both of us kept quiet. I don’t really like anyone in my room but I got no energy to drag him out. But he was so quiet that I pretended he’s not there. Well, that’s better. Mom came in and gave Len the porridge. He fed me as I can’t even hold the spoon properly. He looked at me with those pity eyes and I hate it. I don’t want him to think me as some fragile stuff that can easily break. After watching 6 episodes of SAO, I felt asleep.

I woke up when I heard birds chirping outside the window. I took my cell phone to check the time, 3p.m. How long has I been sleeping. Ah,... the TV’s still on. I tried to stand up and felt someone gripping my hand. I looked to the left and saw Len sleeping with his hand holding mine tightly. Well that actually hurts but I don’t want to wake him that I kept quiet. Quietly, I switched the TV off. Hmm,... I’ll continue watching this tomorrow, I guessed. My head felt dizzy, maybe I slept too long. Sigh,... I want to take a bath.

I looked at Len. He must be tired watching me that he slept before turning the TV off. I stared at him, admiring all his face features. He has that pretty boy eyes and a perfect nose with that small baby lips. The thing I like the most is his yellow spiky, long hair that really looks like that of a banana. When was the last time I ate one? My face came nearer to his and I brushed his hair off, when suddenly the door opened and I 
saw Kaito and Luka outside. Their eyes wide opened and their mouths were opened wide.

“Err,... guys I can explain. Well, urm,..come in first.”

Luka and Kaito dashed inside. They looked at me with that eyes that want an explanation. I explained what happened, that Len was just came to visit and take care of me and things were not like what they thought it is. After ten minutes, they quietened down. With all the commotion, Len woke up. Luka and Kaito looked at him angrily and he was confused. Lol, poor guy. Well, I was the one that urm,... disturbed him.
I went down and mom said she didn't tell them coming because both of us were sleeping. Sighed,... I couldn’t said anything to her. I took some snacks and tea upstairs. I put my ears on the door and Len, Kaito and Luka seems to be arguing, like I've expected. When I opened the door, they all quietened down with a fake smile on each of them. Kaito helped to poured the tea and Len already grabbed five pieces of cookies on each hands. I can called him Cookie Monster then, hehe. Luka seems to be quiet. Only eyes 
signals telling each other to talk first. Luka broke the quietness.

“Miku-chan, Kaito and I were truly sorry for what happened yesterday. We didn't want to woke you because we didn't want to disturb you and we wouldn't thought that something like that might happened.”

“Oh,..it’s okay. I wasn't angry anymore and it was no one’s fault. So why were he targeting at me because of Len?”

“That,... actually Len’s not a delinquent, he’s kinda the hero of the school, helping the students to overcome their fear of bullies. Once, Kaito was bullied by Danny from class 3C and Len helped to fight him. But, Len lost control of himself and Danny was seriously injured until he was admitted to the hospital. So that guy from yesterday was actually his brother. He was holding a grudge towards Len and planned to torture you instead. Len asked us to keep it a secret as he doesn’t want you to get involve or basically he was actually shy. So the reason why Len was absent for the early classes was that he was busy reporting the incident to the discipline teacher. Well that’s particularly all the stuff we kept secret from you. Miku, once again we’re truly am sorry because we made you involved in these. Gomen.”

“Well,... I... it’s okay, Kaito-kun, Luka-chan. I was not angry or anything. I thought it was okay for at least you guys are not keeping any secrets from me again.”

Things seemed to be relaxed after a while. Len smiled at me and I smiled back. He seemed likes he wants to talk to me about something but eventually he just kept quiet.  Len went back to his house to get some games. Luka seems to be stucked at my novel’s rack. Well it’s been a long time since I updated my novels and all of it seems to be in a good condition because I just read it once. Meanwhile Kaito was at the comics’ rack. Technically, I collect comics and right now I have like two hundreds over. And video games, urm,... I have a PS4. But I don’t really buy the games since I don’t really play. Later Len came back with tons of video games, I choose ‘Alice Madness’ because I played it before at my cousins house and the game was truly recommended. Len was sitting beside me, watching me playing and it somehow made me happy.
Time passed and it was almost 5p.m. and Kaito and Luka need to go home by then. I prepared a paper bag so that they can borrow anything they want. Luka took 3 novels and I seriously don’t remember I bought it. Kaito borrowed about 20 comics and he wanders around to see any interesting stuff. He stops in front of my desk.

“OMG, chibi Miku-chan hontoni kawaii!”

Len quickly took it and he looks shocked. I don’t really know why, but he kept asking me when is the photo taken, but I said that I truly forgot about it. Kaito then took my calendar. And he screamed.

“Miku-chan, this Saturday is your birthday?”

Len looked at me,..again...

HE LOOKED SHOCKED

FANFIC- FRAGMENTS OF MEMORIES(3)

Sorry for any grammar mistakes. Well here you go chapter 3.

I woke up with the sounds of mom screaming at me to get up. Huh? What time is it? 7a.m., great. I still have a few minutes to get prepared. I slept late last night, skyping with my friend from Australia. It’s been a long time since our family moved back to Tokyo from Australia so I kinda missed her like a lot. I checked my cell phone for any missed calls or messages from dad. And as expected, none.

After finished checking myself on the mirror, I was ready to go to school. I ran down and grabbed a mug of strawberry milk. Mom was nowhere in sight, I wonder if mom was avoiding me like dad too. I looked at my watch, 7.30a.m., I can still eat something. Poured the cereals almost half of the bowl and as the finishing touch, adding strawberry milk. NYUM NYUM... DING DONG! The door bell rang, who is it would ring someone’s bell this early? Sighed,...i looked through the hole in the door.

Gasp, Len! What’s he doing here? Is he lost or something? I looked at the mirror near the door. Okay, I looked nice, I’m great! After waiting almost ten seconds, I opened it. Len stood with that of his sleepy face on. He looked angry that I stepped back a little. He looked at me with his dark baggy eyes and his messy hair.

“Come on, get ready. We’re going to school together. Hurry up.”

“Why? I didn't ask you to accompany anyway?”

“Your mom’s in my home. My mom and yours asked me to go with you which is something really bothersome to me. It’s not like you’re a baby or something. Mehh...”

I slammed the door in front of his face. Served you right. Muahaha!! I didn't want to go with you anyway. Just go away already. I went inside again to clean the mug and bowl. Then, I went to the door again and looked through the hole. Good, no sight of him. I can go out now! When I stepped out, I startled. Oh,,, god! He’s still there! Len was crouching near the door and his dead, evil eyes fixed at me looking angry. Err,.. I should run. Yeah! I better should ran. Len grabbed my hands before I can do anything and pushed me towards him. I was cornered. With his body in front of mine, I cannot escaped anymore.

“Wait.”

I struggled to free myself.

“I said wait!!!”

I looked at him, surprised. He looked so angry and furious that I was scared and began to cry.

“Oh great. You’re really are a baby, are you?”

He left me in front of the house. I thought he left left me and ran away that I cried even louder. But then he came back, with his bicycle.

“Hop on! I’ll carry you at the back. Bet you can’t even see the way with those eyes.”

He patted the back seat as if giving me instructions to sit there. I sat quietly behind but when we started moving I was almost thrown backwards that I quickly grabbed him tight. He looked backed and smiled.

“Well if you had been a good girl, I wouldn't even have to get angry with you.”

I blushed, maybe he’s right and I’m wrong. Now, I don’t even know why I cried in the first place. His back feels warm.  And fluffy and smells nice that I buried my face at his back. He was startled at first that he immediately stopped the bicycle but then he started paddling again. I laughed and gave him the sweetest smile I got when he glanced behind.

When we arrived at school, all eyes were on us. Then we went at the back to lock the bicycle. I met Luka and Kaito talking and I walked near to greet them. They looked so shocked that I started the conversation first. When I looked behind again, Len was gone. Oh geez... when things were getting good.

During the first class it was Gakupo’s sensei period. But he didn’t came today as his wife is pregnant. Oh, he’s married already, exactly like I guessed. I went to Luka and Kaito who was discussing about football and when I joined them, they went quiet.

“So Luka, how is Len in school? Tell me seriously this time, please.”

They both were quiet and glancing each other at first, but eventually Luka spoke. She said that Len is kinda like a delinquent and he bullies people like punching in the guts or something like that. Kaito then told me Len’s once punched a guy until he was admitted in the hospital. I was surprised, is Len that bad? He seems like a nice guy to me. Luka and Kaito quickly changed the conversation topic when I quietened down. I went to my chair and slept.

Bam! Someone just kicked my table or something. I quickly woke up, how long has I been sleeping? Is that Len, if so I’m seriously gonna kill him. I looked up. To my surprise, I saw a mean looking guy directly looking at me. I’m scared. I looked around, no one was in the class. It must be PE’s period now. That guy dragged me outside and through the hallway. Forcefully pulled me up the stairs before opening the door of the school’s rooftop, he pushed me inside before locking it again. I looked around, hoping to find someone to get help, I screamed and ran away from him. Quickly, he yanked me back by pulling my hair and he punched me until I stumbled and fall to the ground. He slapped me when I cried to make me stop. He then took his cell phone and dialed someone.

“I got your girl, Len. Now you know how it feels when someone precious to you is being hurt.”

Len? Does he know about this? Why? I didn't do anything that bad to him.

“I don’t care, just wished that I didn't do anything that bad like you did to bro to your girlfriend. Pray hard, okay?”

I heard he spoke again and laughed before putting his cell phone away. A few seconds later, I heard a loud BANG! I looked in front and a few fingers were tightly grabbing the rooftop bars from below. And FLASH, a body jumped upwards from below. Len was crouching on the rooftop bars. I and that guy were startled. I mean, this is the fourth floor! I saw Len glaring at him with that of his dead eyes, then he was punching him and blood was everywhere and the next thing I knew was that...

I FAINTED